Confidence......where are You...

Confidence .....is a confusing concept.  If I said to my friends or work colleagues that  I lacked confidence, they would laugh at me and I understand why because in contexts where I am comfortable, I appear, and most times am, confident.  

However, put me in a new context or in front of an audience and for some reason confidence escapes me.  I feel so awkward and uncomfortable that I feel sick!   Why?  The primary reason is to do with how I feel about myself - one of the key reasons I am on this journey!  

Let me give an example of how I try to cover my lack of confidence - every Sunday we attend church and Paul loves to arrive early, me I prefer to arrive late and sneak in hoping no one really notices I have arrived.  In a new social setting I tend to sit on the fringe - I observe those around me and my mind takes off - they look better than you as if they would want to talk to you etc. etc.  getting ready to go to such events is torturous, the self loathing and insecurities set in (which is another reason I run late).  

One of the comforts I have when my confidence evades me is that God loves me and understands my struggles.  This hope alone is enough to make me thankful.  God gave his Son for me so I must take confidence in who he has created me to be.  

So what prompted me to write about confidence?   A couple of things come to mind:-

1.  It's something I feel I should have more of;

2.  Lack of it causes me to stumble in my ability to achieve my goal.  This is a stress point.

3.  I can display confidence in my day to day work so why not in less formal situations.

4.  This week I have no confidence that I can maintain the journey due to time constraints.

I pray a solution will become evident re my confidence and my tiredness and my lack of confidence will be a thing of the past!

CHRIST IS ENOUGH FOR ME........

Love this text below.  Gave me a great giggle....