Heading in the right direction !

Today I can do a "happy dance", I hopped on the dreaded scales for the first time in over a week and I was ecstatic - 2.5kg gone!   Even more exciting was the fact that this evening I did my run/walk and decided to test how far I could run without stopping and I did 11 minutes.  That surprised me and I felt ten feet tall - I covered 1.6 km.  Small achievement in the scheme of things but if I keep celebrating each small improvement the road ahead looks less daunting.

I am confident I am on track to complete my first goal of running Peak to Park in early March.  The time goal I will assess closer to d-day.

Yesterday I felt I  received my spiritual boost to help me keep going.  I am not going to lie this change is tough - it's not fun to go out running knowing you have fat bits wobbling everywhere, but the Holy Spirit keeps whispering to me to keep going - not to give up.  Church on Sunday was just wonderful and encouraging.  I love seeing God at work and that was so evident .

I not only managed to do my run/walk but some incidental exercise too.  I am finding as each day passes I am feeling more energy - this is exciting.

I have also almost given up coke zero I am down to one every two to three days - a major break through considering how much I was having and I have had very little chocolate - yeah.  The chocolate craving still comes, I have found that if I ensure I have good meals I can hold off the craving.

Prayer and listening to worship music on my runs have been a real encouragement,   On days when I feel tired or a bit low, I put on my headphones walking gear and off I go.  Yesterday  I had a twinge in my back that was causing me a lot of discomfort, I thought I would walk and see how I went, initially it was uncomfortable but after a couple of hundred metres I felt good and managed to run as well.  Listening to the words of the song "You Never Fail" is enough to keep me going. He never fails me!

"There's noone like our God, there's nothing that can stand against us...."

 I do feel like Satan is trying to attack me though, my mind keeps niggling at me, so much to lose, so far to go, people will think you are crazy, they are laughing at me etc.  I hope and pray this lessens, by trying to stay in Gods Word I am confident this can be achieved.   The other stumbling block I have is investing energy in issues that I should hand to God, this is my goal this week.

I get negative as I get busier with work so I need to work on strategies to counteract this.  Just by acknowledging that now in writing is the first step.  The negativity becomes reality if I let it fester.  Going to meetings particularly large ones is where I often feel insecure and inadequate, I confident in my role but definitely not in my body!  This impacts my confidence and ultimately the contribution I make.  I am seeking Gods help with this because poor self esteem often causes me to stumble in my journey to health and fitness!

Overall I am feeling positive....if God is for me who can be against me.!