I am slightly proud of myself I went for my first run in 2014 - well more like a walk and slow shuffle but I DID IT - 5km! How I go around to do it was a battle of the mind and body ....
When I woke this morning the excuses started as follows:-
- I'm so tired, I had a big day yesterday;
- It's too late (8:45 am) and too hot;
- It's too late (8:45 am) and too hot;
- I am on holidays, wait till I go back to work;
- I deserve a sleep in - rest is important too....
Then I opened my Facebook and saw the encouragement I have received from friends, I also looked at our new family photo (that I will give the story to down the page) and prayed, then this verse was 'liked' by a friend
"Do not remember the former things. Nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing. Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it?....."
So then I got to thinking the reasons I should get up and move my butt into gear:-
- failing is not an option in 2014 I will run 4km in March - start now;
- I am on holidays I have anytime today to do it;
- If I can do it in the heat how much easier when I do it earlier next week before work;
- Every day I put it off is closer to not achieving;
- I told everyone I would do this!
- God wants my best;
- This journey starts NOW...
So I got up put on my running clothes (super attractive they are not!) including my heart monitor. I had a real giggle because honestly the aids I have is ridiculous - Heart rate monitor, Polaris watch, PRT Trainer Ap (0-5km in 8 weeks), and MapMyRun+ (MPV version which includes goals and coach) plus music!!!!!!! Hey I am committed so whatever it takes! So I set off with two coaches and music in my ear!!
Was it easy.....NO WAY...the running coach thing gets me to walk 2 mins and run 1 min sounds easy but it was hard and hot...by half way the doubts started...
- why are you doing this, you must look ridiculous;
- struggling to run 1 min how am I going to do 4km;
- people can see you doing this;
And so on....
Then the song God Never Fails came into my ear and I was reminded that Christ had many laugh and jeer at him but he went through with his plan, a bit of a run with flab was nothing I should suck it up and not fail.
Exactly half way I hit three pause buttons to get my breath (sad I know) and a message came through from a friend I didn't read it at the time but what flashed momentarily on my screen was "Morning Suzzanne :) after reading all your blog you have also inspired me...." WELL I don't recall reading the bit about the blog all I saw in my sweaty exhausted teary eyes were "morning suzanne ..also inspired"..it was justbwhat I needed because I hit the restart button and I was back on my way. At 3.5 km I had finished the training session through PRT however I had set on MapMyRun I was going to do 5km! Crazy girl I could do with going home but I didn't I kept going! Almost home and I still had 400 metres so I had to do some extra metres up our street to get to 5km - today 4.8 was not goal! It was a very proud moment when to coach said "goal achieved 5km". I felt wiped out but a grin was on my face! Thanks for the message Natalie and thank you Lord for your never ceasing presence in all I do!
I wish my mind during the run could automatically blog my thoughts - some were terrible, others great! So on to my day of healthy eating choices, maybe a swim or crossfit. I feel great!
FAMILY PHOTO
I want to explain how this pic upsets and motivates me all at once. Anyone who knows me understands how much I Hate having my photo taken so doing a photoshoot (even if done at home with Pauk) is traumatic for me and that's not exaggerating. When I look at this pic of me I see me trying to hide behind Joel to cover my "fat" I see unhealthy and know how I was feeling when it was being taken, I won't even put anymore adjectives because they are all negative!
Then I look at my husband and kids and feel extremely proud. They are part of my motivation I want to enjoy life with them, I want energy to run, play, swim, be crazy with them. I want to feel confident to pose for photos with my gorgeous family!
Finally, God put us on earth for a purpose, to serve and glorify him, I am responsible for how I serve him, he has given me all the tools - I just need to follow through.
Phil 4v13. I can do all I things through Christ who strengthens me,
He did that today and he will continue to give me the strength I need. I just have to ask!
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