Struggling.....

This has been a difficult post to write.  There are so many things I could say, even want to say but it would not be appropriate!  Needless to say I have had a real struggle the last couple of days - why?  Well things have become hectic, family returned home (both excuses) and I have been stretched emotionally through some matters I have needed to deal with.  Cryptic I know but for good reason.  God understands.

 Do you ever have days where to show God's love it is really really hard?

Well I have had a couple of those days.  You see I really get upset at unjust and unfair behaviour towards others, it drives me mad!   Being a "miss fix-it" (I blame it on my birth order - eldest), I am struggling with hard conversations I have to have.  If the behaviour was towards me I can cope, but when it's towards my daughter - different story.  One benefit, a large amount of time praying to my Lord and Saviour.

This struggle has railroaded my journey temporarily, I haven't been to my Crossfit this week mainly due to lack of sleep (plus a sore tooth), eating slipped a little (although better than it could have been - still no chocolate), I haven't run for 2 days although back to that tomorrow - 5km Park Run - run/walk for me!,

This last couple of days has made me realise how big a part stress and anxiety can play on our physical well being.

So, how am I going to pick myself up and move forward?

• Prayer for discernment and wisdom;
• Read God's Word;   Your Word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path -             Psalm 115:105
• Address the issue as best I can;
• Get clean with my eating again;
• Exercise and more exercise;
• Show love to my daughter.

The verse "Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you."  1Peter 5:7 is my stronghold.  It's not easy and I still have the tightest of knots in my gut but I know he is walking with me!
BUT I will not be derailed, God is my strength and shield, I WILl be eating clean tomorrow, I WILL run tomorrow. 

 I have shed my tears, bore my soul, likely to be mocked and talked about but I know IF GOD IS FOR ME WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME!!

For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime! Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes with the morning. (Psalms 30:5 NLT)

So tomorrow I am going to find the ninja in me and move forward!