Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Grateful...Optimistic.....

I am overwhelmed by the love and encouragement I have received in embarking on this journey.  I know I have said it before but I have to say it again, it is overwhelming and I cannot express how grateful I feel. 

I honestly believe blogging will be a key contributing factor to my success in this journey as opposed to past efforts. 

I did not set out to blog in order to receive encouragement - rather I am doing the blog in order to download/dump my thoughts and feelings in order to free my mind and hopefull have less negative thoughts.  I also undertook the blog to hold myself accountable.!  The encouragement is an almighty BONUS.

Yesterday I was back at work and a little unsure how I would go as far as eating etc.  I came home having not eaten any chocolate or coke zero.  That is a major milestone.  I had a lovely salad for lunch and ate breakfast before heading off to work.  I think this helped, I also did not wait for lunch until 2:00-3:00 p.m. which is a bad habit I had formed.  So I feel like another little WIN for me - I know I celebrate the smallest things but I am trying real hard to put positive thoughts into my mind!!

I also had a real motivating and encouraging moment last night when our lovely neighbour contacted me and advised "I have read your blog and happy to be your conscience, would you like me to drive you to Crossfit tomorrow morning, I leave at 4:35 a.m."!!!  (thanks Matt) Wow that was just so great and the push I needed to get back to CrossFit and I am proud to say - I was up and did my CrossFit this morning.  I feel really excited.  I am starting to believe I can actually do this - high fives all round!!!

I have to write down how I am feeling today -
  • positive,
  • encouraged,
  • starting to believe in myself,
  • proud of what I have done so far,
  • scared (things will go pearshaped quickly),
  • energised,
  • impatient (I got on the scales this morning!!),
  • optimistic, and
  • hugely motivated!!!.

Mixed bag I know but that is complex me! 

I know I write a lot about God and my faith and upon reflectiing on this (I have been doing a lot of reflecting), I realise that it's true God is the most important part of my life, it is through Him that I find my purpose, he provides me with everything I need, Family, finances, friends, encouragement etc; so I know that in writing this blog there will be a lot of my conversations with him and some may think I am a religious freak - I don't really mind, but I must say I am not, I have a personal relationship with God (he sent Jesus to die for me) and he is My Rock and Foundation and with every year older I get I realise more and more how important he is to me. 



As I continue on my day, feeling a little weary from my early morning start, I can't help but have a heart full of joy at the love and support I have received and know that God has placed some very special people in my life, some I know well and others I haven't even met.  I have been reflecting in my happiness a very big favourite Worship Song of mine that a new friend (amazingly) send me a link to yesterday (Thanks Ally).  If you read this and have time click on the link and enjoy - 10,000 Reasons

The sun comes up, it's a new day dawning
It's time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I'll worship Your holy name

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